desiring an escalation so that the pain, suffocation and loss of consciousness would gain the upper hand as quickly and as vehemently as possible so that he may finally go to “OVER THERE”. He experienced a kind of addiction instead of a fear of death. It will hopefully happen this time! The undertow from the OTHER SIDE was as powerful as his desire to get away from here. In addition is has to be mentioned that – the pathological changes recorded by the electric cardiogram (ECG) that lasted for some time, are not due to a heart attack, but to a lack of oxygen – death didn’t reach out for him purely psychically, but also organically. The disappointment to land once again in the here and now was even greater than the first time around. This feeling remained under the surface; but it powerfully resurfaced over again at night, in dreams and during lonely hours of meditation. This had nothing to do with depression or even thoughts of suicide. On the contrary – to be allowed to die seems to indicate a reversed direction for him, as if his energetic actions in the here and now could overcome being attracted by the “OTHER SIDE”. His almost constant fear of dying that had been with him up to this illness has completely disappeared. It was not the treatment of the dying or having to mentally deal with the process of dying that brought about this change, it was his own concrete experience! – This allowed him to see a lot of the things he had read about death and dying in a new light. After the first publication of his self-experience of dying, it took place in a medical journal, this well-known physician received a lot of letter from other physicians that contained corroborations and additions. They however also indicated that a certain resistance towards thoroughly dealing with this problem still existed, because the narrated death experiences happen more often than one actually assumes. They are not an exception, but rather typical! If one turns to senior nurses one hears more about this than from doctors. The indicated naturally finds resistance from amongst doctors, so that most of the thus affected spread a veil over their experience because they “lack the words” to describe it and because they do not feel understood by those that had not experienced something similar or equal, they are also afraid that one might regard them as dreamers. Of more importance is the ascertainment that most of the patients he was familiar with were not deeply religious so that so-called suggestive influences from that side cannot be considered a substantial factor. The registration of the dying experience has only now become possible through modern medicine, because more and more people are rescued from the claws of death (far into the organic process) through resuscitation. The most impressive example is probably that of Nobel Prize Winner Lew Landau (according to Dorozynski) who had been rescued from death numerous times. Compared to the past, the registrations of the dying experience are made possible in various ways these days. This however requires that physicians drop their animosity towards “being allowed to die”, because one does not want to admit that “being allowed to die” could be something worth striving for. This is particularly apparent with young doctors, the way they fight for the last breath of even very old patients with all their therapeutic armaments – to then regard the inevitable death as an affront.
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