- 82 - Eerie incidents. Feeling the onset of possession. Sometime after that severe break of trust, I had an extremely malicious experience. I had decided for the second time to give up automatic writing; with whom could I write after these deceptions? Andreas didn’t want to, at least not yet. I wanted to wait for the moment when he would give me the assignment through his medium himself – but when I felt an extremely strong urge to write automatically one morning, I nevertheless grabbed a pencil. The pencil began to write, but the first word had hardly been put down on paper – the name of the spirit that had duped me – when I had the terrible sensation of having something alien irresistibly push itself into me and take possession of my body; I literally felt that I was pushed sideways out of my body. Filled with dread I jumped up and I wanted to rush off without purpose or aim, but I managed to keep control to some degree. This alien – this is the only appellation that I can use – forced itself upon me more and more and it literally sucked its way inside. A chill went right through me and my legs felt like they were paralysed and became as heavy as lead. But the worst about this was the horror that I felt. I fought with this terrible condition all day by myself, but it then gradually eased off. I kept this experience from my wife, because I didn’t want to put her off Spiritism; but a few days after, when she was alone in the house and when she attempted to write automatically, she also suffered such an attack. When I returned home, she told me what had happened filled with dismay – the paralysed legs, the same dreadful feeling that something eerie suddenly pushed its way inside of her – a condition that only stopped after half a day had passed. She had not dared to deal with Spiritism ever since. A similar attack happened to an experienced spiritist sometime after, also when attempting to write automatically. His experience seemed even worse than mine; he jumped up with a cry of fear, ran out into the garden and he was completely beside himself. He had also felt that something invisible and malicious wanted to take control of his body and push him out. I have never experienced a more eerie scene in my life. In regards to the last-mentioned case I have to mention that this man knew nothing about the attacks that were made on myself and my wife; so that his experience seemed like a planned attack. The day before, I had been urgently encouraged through automatic writing (something I just couldn’t leave alone) to induce this man to attempt to write when we met with him the next evening. He had not been able to do this and he was also not that keen, but he must have made an attempt after I encouraged him – with this terrible result! It isn’t just automatic writing that opens to door to such eerie attacks, but even simply participating in discussions about Spiritism seems to be dangerous, even for non-spiritists. A similarly dreadful case happened. An elderly man was the victim. He turned up after a meeting and he made an ironic remark about spirits and he immediately experienced the same as the others. I have often read about these eerie phenomena in spiritistic journals, particularly in the English journal “Light’. I asked the spirits and they clearly admitted that they carried out these attacks. But they said that we were at fault; because we couldn’t stay away from them and we should interfere in their affairs. I spite of all of this I continued with working on behalf of Spiritism, because I fully trusted Andreas who not only constantly reminded me of showing endurance, but on occasions wrote that we had nothing to fear from the attacks of evil spirits, because the darkness didn’t only hide enemies. He indicated that we should refrain from attempting to engage in other methods from those that he declare to us and he promised to loyally stand guard over us if we remained assembled around his sacred mission. But in contrast to this he had written a number of times that it might be impossible for him to help us under certain circumstances, because the power of darkness might very likely be able to render him unconscious – it could tower over us and the danger could then be enormous.” These were not the only deceptions that Carolsfeld- Krausé experienced. He reports further (2, P. 84): Mira also drops her mask The female spirit, my “guardian angel´ made short shrift of the situation one day and revealed herself to be a beguiler in a most brutal fashion. Strange as it may seem – I had not expected this –
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