- 70 - had the following conversation: Question : Are you aware of your mother’s death who has taken her life because of the despair that she was overcome with after losing you? Son : Yes, and I would be perfectly happy if it was not for the anguish her fateful decision to do what she did, causes me. Poor and excellent mother! She couldn’t bear the test of the momentary separation and in order to be with her son whom she loves dearly, chose a path that will keep her from her son for quite some time. She thereby delayed their reunion to an undetermined degree, something that would have happened relative soon, if she had subjugated her soul to the Lord’s will and if she had accepted the test with penitent humility, something she should have subjected herself to in order to expediate her atonement! Pray, oh pray for her! And above everything else, do not copy her you mothers, who are touched by the sad report of her demise! Do not believe that she loved her son more than other mothers, the son that was her pride and joy! No, she didn’t love him more, she simply lacked courage and divine submission. You mothers who are listening to me, remember that when you see the death throes of your children and see how their extinct eyes veil over, that you climb Mount Golgotha like Christ, from whence you are supposed to raise yourselves into eternal glory! The mother (Mrs. C.) then entered the medium and the following conversation ensued: Mother : ‘I want to see my son! Do you have the power to restore him to me? These cruel ones! They have taken him away in order to guide him into the light and they left me here in darkness! I want to have him, he is mine! Does the love of a mother count for nothing? What! I carried him for nine months, fed him with my milk, flesh of my own flesh, blood of my own blood, guided his first steps, taught him to babble the holy name of God and the sweet name of his mother, made a man out of him filled with action, discernment, honour, uprightness, a child’s love – to lose him at a time when all my hopes and his shining future were about to be realised! No, God is not just! He is not a God of mothers! He does not understand their desperation and their pain. And as I executed my death so as not to be separated from my child, I am robbed of him once again! My son, my son, where are you?’ Question : ‘Poor mother, we have compassion for your pain. But you have chosen a sad means to be reunited with your son. Suicide is a crime in God’s eyes and you should have remembered that God punishes all trespasses against his laws. To be robbed from seeing your son is your punishment.’ Mother : ‘No, I thought that God was better than people. I didn’t believe in his hell, but in the eternal reunion of souls that loved one another the way we loved one another. I deluded myself. He is not a just and kind God, because he didn’t understand the intemperance of my suffering and my love. Oh, who is going to give me my son back? Have I lost him forever? Mercy, mercy my God!’ Question : “Let’s see what can be done, allay your desperation! Consider, if there is a means for you to see your child again, it is not through blasphemy, as you do. Instead of being gracious with God, you draw even more strictness from him.’ Mother : ‘I have been told that I will never see him again. I understood this: His was led into paradise. And I, am I in hell? The hell for mothers? It is quite obvious to me that it exists.’ Question : ‘Believe me, your son has not been irretrievably lost to you! You will certainly see him again. But you must first deserve it through subjugating yourself to God’s will, because your indignation can delay the point in time for an indeterminable time. Listen to me! God is infinitely kind, but he is also infinitely just. He never punishes without reason and if he burdened you with great suffering on Earth, it happened because you deserved
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