- 40 - Doctor : Do you remember being ill? Spirit : I cannot remember anything properly anymore. (Suddenly very agitated) No! No! I believe there is something wrong with me! Do you think that I am losing my mind? Look there! Look there! There is my husband! No! No! He is a spirit. Just have a look at him. Doctor : We are also talking to a spirit when we talk to you and we are not afraid. Spirit : There is also my child! There’s my little child! I believe that I am losing my mind! My Lily, my little Lily! Hugo, my husband! I think I am going mad! There is also my mother! I believe my mind is diminishing! I am afraid – all of them come towards me! Hugo, my husband, is it really you? My little Lily, oh how I love you! I am so fearful! Doctor : Do realise that you have lost your terrestrial body and that you are a spirit now? Just get this right in your head. Spirit : Please tell me what Hugo, my mother and Lily want here with me? Are they not happy in heaven? Why don’t they stay there? Doctor : Would you not like to go with your husband, your mother and your little daughter, they would dearly like to take care of you, so that they can finally get some peace? Try to understand that you have discarded your terrestrial body. Spirit : When is this supposed to have taken place? Doctor : We are not able to tell you this. Spirit : I sometimes felt like a big, strong woman, one that could easily deal with anyone. I then again felt a lot smaller. All of this confused me completely. Doctor : This might have been the reason why you possessed a variety of people. You can however be freed from this condition. Spirit : Will I then finally find peace? Will I no longer wake up and realise that I only dreamt and that this terrible man and the crying child are still around me? I don’t want to see that man again. He constantly started to fight with the women, as if he was a pest. He was so angry and he didn’t treat the little girl very well either so that she was in constant fear of him. Doctor : Try now to forget what happened and think of the future. Go with your husband, he will show you the beauty of the world of spirit. Spirit : My husband Hugo! I dearly love him and my life no longer seemed worth living after he died. My dear child followed him one month later. The child was three years old and Hugo, my husband meant everything to me. I never gave a thought about what was going to happen to me after he had left me. We travelled a lot whilst he was still alive. We have been everywhere. We had travelled to Alaska. This is where I caught a cold and ended up with pneumonia. My child also became very ill. To experience all of this again is difficult for me. Doctor : Why do you have to go through these sad memories now when all your family is here and want to take you with them? Spirit : I would like to go with them, but I am afraid, because they are dead. Hugo tells me that he has been looking for me for years and I cannot tell him where I have been. When Hugo and Lily died, I became very ill and the doctors told me that I was a nervous wreck. My health deteriorated and I remember being taken to a place called Elgien (probably a mental hospital). My memory is very faint about this. When I recuperated (probably died), I went to St. Louis because I had a sister there. Ever since I started to talk to you I started to feel different and I am now determined to go with my family. Can you see this
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