- 17 - and read. Because, even though I was by and large convinced of the correctness of this notion whilst on Earth, I did retain a certain amount of healthy distrust in regards to all of these assertions. It was therefore a great satisfaction to find everything in the same form as it had been described on Earth, something I probably had not foreseen. This may seem to be a contradiction to some. I would therefore like to clarify that: My concerns were based on that I assumed the otherworldly life would move in forms and shapes that would be incomprehensible to our terrestrial mentality. I therefore assumed that a lot of the things that were communicated to us were transmitted in forms and expressions that terrestrial human beings could understand, but that a precise description of the actual conditions were practically hardly possible due to the restricting limitations of the terrestrial vocabulary and terminologies. I will only write a few lines about the period of my direct transition to the world of the hereafter. I have talked about it on numerous occasions elsewhere. The first part of this affair ran extremely tragic and disharmonious. However, from the point in time when my physical life ended, the battle against the overwhelming power of my mental and physical stress suddenly came to an end. I am not willing to say more about it. The first great surprise for me was – I would like you to understand that I was “dead” according to terrestrial opinion – that I was in a position to lend other people a hand and to help them. To be able to help others in spite of my own terrible stress made my transition a lot easier. I must admit that I was simply astonished that I was suddenly able to help others, so astonished in fact that I never investigate why this was so. I had not time to mentally dissect it. This came much later. A new surprise awaited me next and it consisted in that I found a number of former friends assembled around me, friends that had crossed over to the hereafter years ago. This was the impetus that made me really become aware of the sudden changes that had taken place with me. I finally reflected on my own situation and I was a little distraught. A few moments of unrest – only for a short time – and it became clear to me that my momentary experience meant the realisation of the things I already knew on Earth. My terrestrial conviction turned out to be the utter truth. The wish to use a telephone suddenly grabbed me. What an excellent article for the title page of my newspaper raced through my head. This was my first, instinctive reaction. This was followed by a feeling of helplessness. Thoughts about my dear ones at home grabbed me. They would certainly not know anything about this. What kind of worries would they feel about me? I felt as if I was sitting in front of a telephone that was out of order. I was still so close to the terrestrial location of my demise that I was able to observe everything that was happening there very keenly. I saw the wreck of the ocean liner and the people who despairingly fought for their lives before me. This gave me a new impetus. I could help! And within a few seconds – less time than it takes you to read these lines – my state of deep helplessness turned into a state of purposeful activity. To help, and not to be helpless, was my only wish and thought. I hope that I have been helpful. I will skip a few things… The end came. I felt as if one was waiting for the departure of a ship, waiting until everybody was on board. This means in this case that we all waited for the disaster to pass, or rather to come to a complete end. The rescued saved, the dead alive! The scene suddenly changed. A strange journey now began for us. We were a very strange crew on the way to an unknown destination. This whole experience was so indescribably fantastic that I find it difficult to say much about it. Many amongst us who realised what had happened found themselves in a terrible state of uncertainty and great concern about their relatives that they had lefty behind and in regards to their own future. What had the following hours in store for us? Would we have to confront the Master? What would His judgment over us be? The others were completely devasted and apathetic in regards to everything happening around us. They seemed to be incapable of understanding and perceiving things. They were mental and spiritual wrecks. A strange and almost macabre company – truly. Human souls in search of a new land, a new home.
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