The all-important Why

17 and worries of his parents and he found this difficult to deal with. He was often so depressed that he didn’t know which way to turn. This is when he sensed at times that he was not alone and abandoned. He abruptly saw a woman dressed in white next to him, she seemed very familiar to him, and she talked to him, gave him courage and comforted him. It was apparently his deceased great-grandmother. He saw her and he heard her talk. He was therefore not just clairvoyant, but also “clairaudient”. Dear reader, did you know that something like this exists? After such an experience, something he kept to himself, the youngster once again had the energy to live his life that he perceived as been very hard. But he always felt a great longing inside. All he wanted was: Music. He lived with and from music, the songs, that he could learn. This was the way he was. He was a good singer and the little singer was soon discovered and called to do solo performances because of his beautiful voice. This made him glow with zeal and joy. He was also allowed to sing in the choir and this livened him up. But that wasn’t all: Paul would dearly like to learn to play the piano. This was his most secret and dearest wish. But he was well aware that he could not burden his poor parents with this also. How could they possibly buy a piano and also pay for lessons? He knew that this was not possible. Secret tears flowed now and again. But he also received his clandestine visits that nobody apart from him could see. He was consoled and also assured that he would surely receive his own piano one day. He was asked to calmly wait and see. During one winter - Paul doesn’t write what age he was - he fell ill with a terrible headache. The doctor thought it was influenza and refused to visit him a second time. Days went by before another doctor came and talked about meningitis and indicated that it was probably too late. The youngster was transported as an emergency case to a far distant hospital and when he finally arrived there, he was hovering between life and death. Immediately after his arrival he experienced something strange: He saw how he separated from his body and how he hovered under the ceiling from where he could see his crying parents, the doctors and the nurses. He then proceeded through a tunnel into a bright and radiant world where he was approached by friendly, loving faces from all sides. He felt very happy for a short time and he

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